A couple of days ago a very wise friend mentioned that I might want to create ritual for this time including messages of love for Dan, and fire or water. This got me thinking ... a dangerous prospect lol It got me thinking about romantic love and the future.
Over the last five years, whenever I have allowed myself to think about the possibility of the future and romantic love, I have felt enormously guilty, because it has felt like a betrayal of Dan's love. Recently, I've allowed myself to wonder if I'm meant to be alone, romantically, partnerwise, for the rest of my life. There has been a feeling of guilt, but also a feeling that maybe Dan doesn't want me to be alone for the rest of my life, and also the feeling that maybe I need to let God answer that question, rather than closing the door myself.
When my friend mentioned doing a fire or water ritual, this connected with me, and reminded me that I still have the handfasting band that Dan and I were medievally married with. (It's a cardwoven rectangular square with our medieval names, one on each side in our colours, with threads coming out of it which were tied at the wedding by long married couples close to us.) It reminded me about the physical contract made when those cords were tied. That contract has been fulfilled/ended now, but the ties remain bound. I think I will create a ritual to burn the band to literally and figuratively release the contract/the binding that is undone. I think I will do this on the 12th, five years from the day it was ended. The end of deep mourning and the opening of the possibilities for any new romantic love that might come. Just an opening.
Make it a great day!
May your day be filled with love and inspiration.
Love and Hugs,
Heather
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